I'm 1/8 Engineer!

When swimming into a dark tunnel, there arrives a point of no return when you no longer have enough breath to double back. Your only choice is to swim forward into the unknown....and pray for an exit.

I haven’t reached the exit but I’ve reached one of the seven air pockets, gasping for breath. Once I’m done with filling my lungs with ample amount of oxygen, I have to move on, swim forward to the unknown.

I’m talking about Engineering. And the air pockets are the semester holidays!

I’ve finished my first semester of Engineering and look what it has done to me! From the effervescent, affable girl who used to act all weird and crazy to a depressed, paranoid, narcissist, repulsive snob!  Before entering VTU ( Visveraya Technological University), I never understood why every VTU dude made fun of it so much. And now I know why! It’s a blood-sucking monster with crazy rules.
When people used to proudly say that they got 68%, 70%, 74% etc, I used to be like “That’s all?” But now I know why it’s such a big achievement! From day 1 I underestimated VTU, but it’s not easy! IT IS SO NOT EASY!

I am not exaggerating! 

I never wanted to do Engineering; I was more of a Pure-Science person. After my boards, I developed interest in English Literature  and wanted to study arts or take up journalism.
It didn’t matter. My fate was sealed. I would become a Computer Science Engineer. I hate the term “Software Engineer”; Computer Science Engineer sounds cooler, right?

It was terrible in the beginning. I disliked my college (I still do) and having friends studying in top-notch colleges was like applying salt-lime-pepper on a deeply cut wound. I would curl up and cry the whole night, just like that. I was whiny and miserable and grumpy all the time.
I would come up with crazy ideas where I’d write SAT, score 2K+ and take up arts in an awesome college in US when in reality I couldn’t even get into one of the top colleges of my city! I suck, I know.

After 4 months of Engineering, I’ve lost half of my mind and have gathered half of it. That sentence does not make any sense, right? Blame engineering, dude!

Yeah, this is pretty much our  condition!

I rebelled against my parents for making me take up CSE but now I’m sincerely very truly grateful to them. I was also fixated on taking mechanical engineering because I thought I had a thing for machines only to discover a month later that I found jumping off a cliff easier than filing the goddamn metal pieces.

CSE is the best of all. Thank you, dad. I’m gonna start listening to you.

Sometimes I’m terrified, stupefied, petrified, ossified thinking what lies ahead. Whatever it is, I think I’ll be matured enough by the end of the fourth year to figure out what I really want.

Right now, I really want my C++ program to get executed.

Hoping for a “Fouryear” transformation!