Letting go.

This was supposed to be a diary entry but I'm posting it here because I think they're people out there having trouble with choosing the right thing and letting go of insignificant things.

"You can't have your cake and eat it too". You can't have best of both worlds. You can't be the best orator and the best coder at the same time. (I'm not talking of prodigies here. Just normal people like me.) I had planned to push away extra-curricular activities for this semester and devote my entire time for studies.

I assumed this couldn't be very hard hitherto I got an opportunity to represent my college at debate at VTU fest.

First of all, to be completely honest, I don't think I'm good enough. This is a really huge platform where people with humongous amount of talent will be present. And I'm scared, like pee-in-pants scared. Also, I don't want to disappoint my seniors. 

Half of me really wants to go and the other half does't want to/cannot bear any embarrassment. I know I'm being completely ridiculous because I ain't sure if I'll be a disaster and speaking in front of the crowd hasn't really been much of a problem to me, ever.

I gave it a thought and I decided to not go. I had told myself that I wouldn't be participating in anything and academics should be my ultimate goal. For the first time, I'm keeping up a promise I made to myself.

I'm letting go of an opportunity to represent my college at VTU fest.

This is hard.

But you know, academic achievements are like 1's and non-academic achievements are like 0's. No matter how many 0's you add to 1's. Eventually, only the 1's matter the most.

If you're in serious dilemma, sleep on it, because in the last second you'll do what you really want to do.

P.S. Goodbye, VTU fest. See you next year! Hopefully.